In a manic state I went overboard with art. Common with the diagnosis of Bipolar, people can and do really mess up their lives. Spending money in a hypo-manic/ manic state feels amazing.
Propelled by grandiousity and flights of ideas my want for things became more and more magnified. In past manic episodes, I have become obsessive with running, experienced thoughts of paranoia, and onetime I thought I was going to be President Obama's spiritual leader.
The feelings of elations disappear, depression surges like water breaking through the walls of a dam. The knowledge of the damage you created sinks in. These depressive periods can last a longtime. It has been two years since that manic, but I feel I've only been myself for the last 6 months.
I'm ready to let that time and the memories of that time go. Which for me involves selling all the cool stuff I bought in that 7 month emotional hurricane.
Thank you for reading this and for checking out my Chairish Shop!